Our lives are changing

Yesterday was a day that has changed our lives. About 6 weeks ago, John was raking and pulled a muscle (or possibly cracked a rib). It started to heal after a few weeks and was almost better. Then, one morning woke up with a very sore left pectoral muscle (as far as he could tell, that’s what it was). Then about a week after that, he was doing a push up and heard a pop and hurt his left shoulder somehow.  THEN, a week ago he was holding his nephew Calvin and went to lay him down and hurt his left rib. It all kind of became comical at how often he was getting hurt.

His shoulder pain was bad so he went to the Dr. for that.  2 Dr.s, including one bone specialist could not figure out what it was. So, an MRI was ordered for him. He was so not excited about that and it was starting to feel better. He went in for the MRI anyways. He really did not want to pay another specialist co-pay so he called to cancel his follow up appointment and asked to have the Dr. call his with the results. Dr. Hansen called him and said he was not sure about the shoulder, he could not tell from the MRI. But, they did see lots of irregular bone marrow in all of his bones they could see on the MRI. He ordered another MRI to be done and blood work.

That phone call came yesterday. This morning John went in and had the blood work done, we will have the results by Friday. A few months ago he had his physical and his blood work was real messed up, his white blood cell count was WAY high. The Dr. said it was most likely because of stress and we had just moved. 

First thing the Dr wants to do is rule out lymphoma. That is worst case. If he has lymphoma, that means he has cancer that started in lymph nodes, spread to organs and finally to bone marrow. He would have stage 4 cancer and not much can be done. He does not have any of the signs of lymphoma other than irregular bone marrow. So, we are praying that is not what it is. Good chance he has leukemia. Not sure if the blood work will tell us that or not. I HATE the waiting game. I don’t think there really is a “good” situation. No matter what the results show, they will be bad.

I have had every emotion possible in the past 30 hours and probably cried more than I ever have my whole life. Worst part is that we don’t even know what it is yet!!!! All I know is that we are in for some trials. I wish we knew, so we know what is next. It may be a week or longer until we know more. 

I really don’t feel like it is time for John to return to his Heavenly Father. But, every one probably says that. I NEVER thought this would be something I would face again in my life. I lost my Dad and my Grandma and 2 Grandpa's to cancer and it will not take my husband!